I am out of my fucking wits here. I can't believe what I did. God I feel stupid......
I have a date tonight.
No big deal, right?
Wrong-its my first date.
With a guy.
I still don't believe I made a date with a guy. I mean, I've been so closeted and here I am, making dates with boys! I'm about to just call and cancel. I'm so scared. I'm not sure what to wear, what to say, what to do.
The irony........I called him.
I still don't know why I did it. I guess......I guess I was just tired of hiding, you know? I'm leaving this town forever Sunday, so what does it matter?
Wait, it does matter. My mom will still be here. She wouldn't be mad.....but she'd be hurt that I didn't tell her. I wish I could tell her, but I'm not even sure what I'm doing. I don't what I am or what I want.
I think...I think I just don't want to be alone.
I don't know.
I've just gotton out of the shower and dressed. Tonight I'll be wearing:
Journal won't let me link to the shoes! On The Buckle's website go to shoes
-Bed Stu Butted Seam Shoe
Worthy of Drezzer I think!
Except the pants......
On to AppleBee's at five! Then, movie!